An interesting thing

I’m starting to feel the desire to take  a name on this blog, rather than be ‘Nameless’. Something has shifted in me today. Perhaps it was this. I sat down late last night to write about fighting, and what came out was something else entirely, and I feel as though I’ve remembered who I am. [...]

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Who’s queen?

Many years ago, in my early twenties, a drunk guy hit on me in a pub. He meant no harm. He was hammered. He started by trying to sweet talk me, and in true shy English style, rather than telling him to sod off, I smiled politely but absently and waited for him to pick [...]

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Ethical exploration

I need some real people to play with. I mean, people who are actually involved in the game. This toying with my acquaintances thing may be fun, but it’s also not really fair. If a guy behaved towards me like that – well, I’d seize him by the throat and reeducate him, but the point [...]

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Dreams and awakening

Some time ago, well over a year ago, before I’d come across Ms Jones and been woken up to the possibility I might be dominant, I had the most intensely erotic dream of my life. There were these two guys, and the dom had invited me into their dynamic as a kind of ‘present’ for [...]

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What is bdsm?

Now that  I’ve hit my quota of eyecandy for the day, it’s time for some thinking. Dear more-experienced-people-than-me: what is this bdsm(&m) lark, anyway? Just a small question. I’m sure we can get to the bottom of it before bedtime. All the terms are so fuzzy, and interlinked, and subjective, and sometimes we throw them [...]

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Submission

From a certain view point, I kind of get the submission thing. I toyed with it in my youth. I can understand the appeal of devoting yourself entirely to someone you wholly revere. I’ve always loved the archetype of an apprentice entirely devoted to his or her master, devoted to the point of self-negation. There’s [...]

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Clues

For the longest time, I had no clue. Then I came across this, and I recognised something, and was gobsmacked. And then I read this, and recognised something else, and was really, really scared. It had never occurred to me that I might have dom leanings, let alone sadistic ones. Inconceivable. Because I thought I [...]

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