I’m starting to feel the desire to take a name on this blog, rather than be ‘Nameless’.
Something has shifted in me today. Perhaps it was this. I sat down late last night to write about fighting, and what came out was something else entirely, and I feel as though I’ve remembered who I am. A [...]
Archive for December, 2008
An interesting thing
Posted in My brain on December 31, 2008 | 4 Comments »
As hard as I can
Posted in Uncategorized on December 31, 2008 | 6 Comments »
OK, now the post I meant to write.
When I was with my ex, I sometimes had the strongest desire to fight with him, physically, to fight with all my strength. I wanted to kick and punch and bite him, as hard as I could. I didn’t, because he didn’t like it. He’d occasionally let me [...]
Who’s queen?
Posted in My brain, The gentle art of domination on December 31, 2008 | 2 Comments »
Many years ago, in my early twenties, a drunk guy hit on me in a pub. He meant no harm. He was hammered. He started by trying to sweet talk me, and in true shy English style, rather than telling him to sod off, I smiled politely but absently and waited for him to pick [...]
Squee, and beautiful men kissing
Posted in Boy-on-boy action, Desperation, Mainstream sadism & dominance, Pretty young men on December 29, 2008 | 3 Comments »
You’ll have to forgive me, I really am in fangirl mode at the moment – I just saw the HBP trailers the other day, and the new Harry/Draco promo shots which are spawning a new wave of fanart, and I’ll all overcome with slashy joy.
Geek pride, my friends.
HBP was so great for H/D shippers. Plus, [...]
Ethical exploration
Posted in My brain on December 29, 2008 | 3 Comments »
I need some real people to play with. I mean, people who are actually involved in the game. This toying with my acquaintances thing may be fun, but it’s also not really fair. If a guy behaved towards me like that – well, I’d seize him by the throat and reeducate him, but the point [...]
Dreams and awakening
Posted in My brain on December 29, 2008 | 3 Comments »
Some time ago, well over a year ago, before I’d come across Ms Jones and been woken up to the possibility I might be dominant, I had the most intensely erotic dream of my life.
There were these two guys, and the dom had invited me into their dynamic as a kind of ‘present’ for the [...]
Son of a preacher man
Posted in Men in emotional pain on December 27, 2008 | 4 Comments »
On Christmas Eve I went to midnight mass with a catholic friend of mine. Now, I don’t much like religion. I’m spiritual, but not religious, and dogma tends to make me uncomfortable. And this friend of mine is not someone I’m remotely attracted to. Not even a little bit.
However, he went up to receive communion, [...]
This looks like so much fun
Posted in Coolness on December 24, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Sol on Fire Play: Dancing with the Sun!
Let’s talk a little about Fire Performance. Why do we dance with fire? It is because of the primal nature of the element. Man lives in awe of the elements and has worshiped them from the dawn of time. Using the elements brings incredible [...]
Christmas
Posted in Coolness, Gender prejudice, Pretty young men on December 24, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
My Christmas present came early this year – I’ve been snowed in at a friend’s house with a few people, including one very beautiful young man who’s spent a lot of time running around in his underwear. I confess I’ve been mildly sexually harrassing him.
Even more fun, one of the girls teaches this, and has [...]
Suffering hero(in)es
Posted in Heroism and masochism, Mainstream sadism & dominance on December 18, 2008 | 3 Comments »
So I was in the shower thinking about heroism and submission and masochism and the like, as you do, and the thought occurred to me that it’s not just our heroes who suffer, but our heroines, too. We have our Atlases and Prometheuses and Odins and Jack Bauers and Wolverines. But we also have Psyche, [...]
